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Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Came to realization that i may look strong and cheerful on the outside but i'm always vulnerable on the inside. To escape from reality is my forte because i know reality hurts.

Came before God and was just worshipping asking for a heart of forgiveness, strong heart and willingness to face the challenges that He've set in front for me.

Lord I give you my heart came to my mind and so i searched on the chords and played it on my guitar. The starting of the song goes " This is my desire to honor You". First sentence striked me... Pastor always say sing what you mean and mean what you sing. If i say that it is my desire to honor Him, i gotta mean it.

By having a heart of forgiveness shows that i honor Him.

The 2F problems that came about was because of my unwillingness to forgive. I wouldn't open up myself to the people around me. Whatever problems that i have never comes out from my mouth and instead over time as it begins to build up, i began to be selfish. To make everyone follow my mood.

Lord, i come before you with a heart of repentance. Teach me to be more like you. To accept reality and accept other people's comment on my wrongdoings. Fill my heart once again with a heart for others and not for myself. Amen,
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Sunday, October 9, 2011
lying on my sister's bed, thinking about the past. look around the room and realized how blessed am i. come to realization that my past sins still haunts me. right at that moment, my sister sang amazing grace..

"my chains are gone, i've been set free. my god my saviou, has rescued me."

how true. i've saved from my sins.

but sometimes, it feels like its easier to be said than done.
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
in need of something to fill the void in my heart. feeling like a failure and a useless freak. havent felt this way in a while. never would i think that everything comes crashing on me at one go. i'm just a trouble maker who takes it on somebody else when i'm upset causing everyone to be upset together with me. i made people follow my ways. one word to describe myself: selfish.
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Tuesday, September 13, 2011
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